Before dead..

waking up drenched in sweat

realizing it’s nothing but a nightmare

I get up to drink a glass of water

to drown the fear that woke me up!
sins I have done plenty

I do not know if the good I did is enough

to grant me a passage to heave

nor worse, born again as human

never cared for what people thought,

never worried about those who left,n

ever a minute I spent crying over split milk,

what had to happen, had to happen!
what I was yesterday is what I am today,

yet people think I have changed, I wonder why!

I take life as it comesno expectations and no demands!
with the guillotine waiting at every step,

uncertainty looms large over tomorrow,

I fear I need to live every moment of today before I am dead!